I live in Atlanta. Hartsfield International is one of the busiest
airports in the world. Hearing an airplane above is as commonplace
as going to the grocery store for this city's residents.
Last night, the skies here and across America were silent.
Sometimes, the absence of something speaks volumes more than
its presence.
I visited New York when I was a teenager. I remember stepping
out of the train station, looking up and up and up, and seeing
just this tiny square of grey sky peeking through all the towers
of metal and glass. I thought: New Yorkers have no sky that
they have not built themselves. I once stood upon the very
tip-top of that man-made sky, on the roof of the World Trade Center,
and looked down with wonder at what had been constructed.
After the dust settles, there will be a whole lot more empty
sky in New York.
There is a void, a hole, a shambling pile of debris where the
towers once stood. Like a missing tooth in someone's smile, our
eyes are drawn to the piece of skyline that is no longer there,
replaced by a dissipating plume of dusky smoke that can be seen
from space.
Sometimes, the absence of something speaks volumes more than
its presence.
Missing pieces are not hard to come by today. Bits are missing
from each of us, as we grieve for so many reasons.
There used to be computers in those buildings. There used to
be elevators, phones, paper-covered desks, photocopiers, Coke
cans and coffee cups next to pictures of friends and family decorating
cubicles.
There used to be people who ran those computers, drank that
coffee, and occasionally called those friends and family on company
time on those company phones to hear about a new baby, Uncle Frank's
surgery, or the need to pick up the dry cleaning on their way
home.
Yesterday, all of that changed. The mundane decisions of who
to cc: on this e-mail and where to go for lunch that afternoon
were replaced. The new decisions and options were chaotic and
brief: to flee, to burn, to be crushed and entombed by rubble,
to suffocate while praying for rescue, or to jump to a certain
and comparatively quick death. A thriving center of commerce turned
into a place of ash and bones in moments. Among the screams, the
suffering, and the abandoned spreadsheets, the choice of how best
to die was their final act of free will.
There used to be routine. September 11, 2001 was anything but
routine. The pattern changed.
As the bereft parents, siblings, spouses and children know all
too painfully today, those faces that once smiled from the cubicle
photos, sometimes the absence of someone speaks volumes more than
their presence.
Today, brave rescue workers continue the arduous and urgent
task of finding survivors. Congress convenes to take action. Kind
people from all over the world express their sympathies via the
internet, and entire countries observe days of mourning. We are
grateful to see the very best of humanity, but also sad to witness
the worst of it. Good, generous people line up to give blood and
attend memorial services; shopping channels and other networks
suspend broadcast in recognition of the tragedy, churches stay
open 24 hours, and outreach efforts are implemented on and offline.
We see the enemy without and within as that element of
society that always serves itself begins price gouging at the
gas pumps, and wastes no time in selling t-shirts and "collectible"
tragedy editions of the New
York Times on online auction sites. Worse, the ignorant and
fearful among us are committing racist acts of violence against
innocent Arab-Americans, and many cast suspicious glances at those
who even look Middle Eastern.
Many of us are a bit more thankful today that we still have
a building to go to work in, and that we still have our pictures
and our coffee cups. Airports remain shut down, tired workers
under maximum security conditions deal with stranded, frightened
travelers, and a blunt truth is quietly spoken: tighter security
will do little to reduce risk despite the cost to privacy. At
military bases around the country, nobody gets in or out. There
are whispers of acknowledgement that our intelligence operatives
are still desperately needed, and that a quantum re-education
of our enemies, our allies, and ourselves must occur on many levels
here and abroad if things are to get better. As we see our citizens
running through New York's war zone with debris filling the air
behind them, some of us are humbled to learn what it is like to
experience the atrocities that people in Northern Ireland, Africa,
and other areas around the world have lived with for years.
Realizations begin to set in. Naiveté and idealism are shed
in favor of pragmatism; pacifists come to terms with experiencing
a desire for retribution and revenge as many are roused from complacency.
The extreme situation engenders extreme reactions. Shock begins
to pass away for some of us, while others remain overcome with
disbelief at the unthinkable happening. A survivor from the 36th
floor "just wants to be 'safe' from animals like those who are
quietly or not so quietly dancing at this news," and is ready
to nuke Afghanistan if they are harboring the perpetrators. We
feel invaded and violated: the deep sense of wrong, that nothing
can justify such an act, fuels a clear, cold anger. We are anguished,
yet we are also resolute. For many, patriotism is discovered as
the phrase "worse than Pearl Harbor" seeps into our collective
consciousness. Heroes are made and mourned.
There is no shelter from the aftermath in this sober new century.
Instead, there is a poignant, creeping foreboding of a slumbering
war bear finally awakened to grim necessity. There are unnerving
words of warning that the numerous conveniences, freedoms, and
liberties that many of us often take for granted may slip away
during such a time. Awareness of the need to fight to prevent
future generations from living in fear of terrorism takes hold.
The evacuation of the US president and Congress and the dispatching
of cruisers off our nation's shores causes both allies and rivals
to quickly arrive at the conclusion that many political scientists
have known all along: a world with the America they know, imperfect
though it may be, is far better than a world without it.
The absence of this America and its ideals might well be far
more chilling than its presence.